It feels like, on a day-to-day basis, if I were to rate myself from 1-10 on how much I'm being productive, engaging in hobbies, socializing etc, I'm a 3-4 on most days, and a rare 11-12 (not sustainable) when there's some sort of important deadline coming up. Would love to be at a sustained 10 or 9 or 8 and that usually takes some sort of inclusive group activity that's a lot more than like, a Discord call
The two weeks up to AC 2022, I was constantly in the 11-13 range, was so stressed that by the time the con came up I didn't even want to go